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Gender Benders, God, and DXM

  • Feb. 1st, 2018 at 9:28 PM

It's a girl. I actually won the battle and I get to name the baby "Seven". Ha! Legit tho I think that's gonna be a cool ass name. People talked shit at first but I pointed out there's roughly an 80% chance she will be going to school with someone named Pikachu. Seriously

I had a weird non religious dream about "god".. So there was this... Invisible cloud-like being.. I would walk outside to my backyard and simply call out for good and not to long after it would come to me. It didn't really give advice or tell me secrets of the universe. It would just be there with me.. it was a weird sensation.. I can't really remember it now.. in the end tho it turned out it wasn't god but an Asian woman who was testing out a special government medication. The thing about this medication was it was being used for her ADHD because she kept losing her toes... Yes .. her toes. She only had 1 left.. and for some reason it turned her into an energy cloud that could fly.. fuckin amazing.

As for fiddling with DXM I believe using about 100 mg every 2-6 hours depending on the individual is a perfect calm medium. DXM as an SSRI is an actual study that's been worked on because of it's fast anti depressant abilities. It's also an NMDA inhibitor so it works as a minor pain reliever. I want to try to see if I can get a prescription but it would be hard to explain.. I think if I print up some real documents and present them as a knowledgeable and aware adult human it could work...

I tripped over my cat in the hallway... Also I need juice

2 weeks

  • Jan. 12th, 2018 at 10:20 AM

I'll soon know the gender of my baby. This is so fucking exciting. Its a whole new world. Everything looks different..

My God key


  • Dec. 30th, 2017 at 6:42 PM

This shit really is magic.

After fucking years of using it abusing it researching it. I've found the perfect dosages.

June 10th is my babies due date. Same birthday as my dad. So much magic is about to happen man. Fuckin life wow.

Everything is perfection. I'm bringing back "pay it forwards". Doing it a lot more lately. Cut the fuck out of my hand ... Gonna have a large gnarly scar. Work is perfection I am on top of my game, sales are a bit low but it's only 3 % I can fix that.

Man.. perfection.. now all I have to do is not die. And everything will work out.

Life, Cats, and Preparing for Prom.

  • Nov. 10th, 2017 at 8:35 AM

I just.. dont know anymore..

Ive started seeing things again.. its almost like shadows.. i once referred to them as shadow cats.. the way they move is almost like a cat but they are around eye level..

I started following them .. I think thats a cause for concern ..

I havent told anyone yet..

I keep hearing cats meowing around me .. I catch myself looking for a cat with nothing to be found ..

how to figure out when to ignore what u see and hear? If i cant trust what i am seeing or hearing .. like how can i trust what real life is .. then i get lost in a whole "we don't even reality" thing...

I still wish i had the balls to kill myself .. 30 years old and im still an angsty teenager .. does this shit end? lol well i guess it would id i was dead lol ..

The Orville is a fucking fantastic Star Trek parody in the most well written of ways. It reminds me a lot of The original Series - ToS

The new Discovery Star Trek is also pretty good.

I jsut ... dont know anymore...

( insert eternal dots of doom )

Saracha makes me poo

  • Oct. 29th, 2017 at 3:08 PM

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well shit

Oct. 11th, 2017

  • 3:05 AM

I'm a huge metal fan. I work at the DMV. I don't talk to anyone.. just mutter a few squeeks every now and then.. A new girl started here recently. I catch her staring at me sometimes. When she does I feel all these tingles inside. Like electric wires pulsating causing me to rotate. I'm a huge metal fan.

Fuckin grown up shit

  • Oct. 9th, 2017 at 8:23 PM

I was approved for a 225,000 homeloan. Also I think I'm getting married. Not like a wedding shit but signing papers to get a better loan and a house of our own. It's weird getting older and being a grown up person. I think I'm gunna go eat nachos. .. also graal is going well.

I'm Okay

  • Sep. 18th, 2017 at 8:05 PM

Trust me ;-D


  • Sep. 6th, 2017 at 5:37 PM

Talked to a recruiter today ... dunno wtf im doing .. kinda super nervous about it all. also ate some sushi today. kinda tasted like mold .. on pay day im gunna go get a GED.

I took the asvab today, kinda rushed through it. was like 50 questions got a 55 .. dunno what that means.



Well shit

  • Sep. 2nd, 2017 at 12:24 PM

I think 2018/2017 I'm joining the Navy. I don't know wtf I'm doing in life so fuck it.


Just... Hope I don't die....