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i got ragey in my last post and smashed the key pad now my entree is gone so ..

now i need weed



8 bit shitty games

  • Feb. 26th, 2017 at 11:42 AM

I don't know what it is about shitty 8-16 bit shit games that calls to me.
The Realm of The Mad God
Mine Craft

i own a top of the line PC... well about 8 years ago top of the line. in 2017 that means im running on garbage. But these games really are the best. I have been in development of my own game for quit some time now. and tbh its basically the same as writing a fuckin book with the amount of scripting needed.. its like okay easy explanation. its like trying to write a novel in spanish, when u only read/write swedish.
i dont know sweedish.

i feel further and further away from humanity every day. the constant adult humans that dont under stand
" choose a colour, then ill make it" - me
" can u show me blues? " - customer
" see that wall of little papers? all coloured blue? those are the blues. choose one that you like and ill make it" - me
" i dont know" - customer

how the fuck am i supposed to reply?
tis fun .. pretending tho. pretending to care while in my head i think of 20 different ways i can dispose of ur body/ the repercussions of murdering them ..

i get ray ban glasses usually 280 jsut for frames, add an additional 180 for all the shit my lenses need, 10 buck out of pocket. can dis the benifits. walk into dentist get a mouth full FULL of white porcelin fillings. free.. free.

i still havent been to a doctor. OH my " lumps" are getting more and more severe.. nerofibromatosis.. started with birth marks.. now i have huge lumps in my spine .. tiny ones growing on my fore head .. at least they are inside me where ppl cant see but i feel them the pain .. every day
life man... life.

somethign is wrong with me .. maybe its not having a mother.. i fall in " love" entirely to easy.. or maybe i jsut have a sensitive heart and my brain mixes up care with love ? girls every where and it just goes cray cray ..

my brain is messed up .. maybe its not.. maybe my understanding of the crossed wires makes me advanced and able to control shit. i dont cheat i try to not steal. i drive like a dick tho and 2017 .. i still cant say no to a menthol cig..

no matter what i try i am addicted to alcohol i think .. but then i thiink about .. how liquer and beer isnt illegal.. and within legal and non abusive standards im fine?

i have a fine collection of jade

one braclet specifically a 15 bead braclet each bead running a worth of abotu 12 dollars a piece.

i dont think men are supposed to wear bangles ?

fuck.. time for work ..


  • Feb. 16th, 2017 at 8:00 PM

walking dead has to be one of my favorite stories right now. both the series and comic. kinda junkied out for the comic cant help but check liek 3 times a month is there is a new release. i cant wait to see gay jesus in the show!! Lowe's is pretty solid place .. jsut had an interview for plumbing specialist should be liek 20+ an hour job which isnt bad at all.. got a mawile in my pokemon moon legit lil asshole knows fire fang/ thunder fang / ice fang BOOM !! fairy type with fire ice and thunder ash can go fuck his peekachew. watching the office again for about the 10th time.. iono

life man, life. trying to work out a bit more keep my body in check. Im gunna be 30 this year.. also i own a turtle. and a sword from a video game. i really have nothign to complain about. thats probably my biggest complaint.. thin i might go play more minecraft and smoke pot.. one of those things ill do right now!!
by that i ment the marijuana thing ..



  • Sep. 28th, 2016 at 10:48 AM


Feb. 7th, 2016

  • 2:48 AM

I think I'm kinda on to something here. Like I think my hated for people or uninterest in the outside world is cause I really don't care about anything. Like the world can end and I'll feel fine. Fuckin black hole sun. I think like if I try to care about something I really will ? Hard to explain but I'm going to experement with this at work. I .. I doubt I'll follow thro with this .. Thinking of it now is kinda making me sick .. Hmm .. Weird reaction ..

I can help but wonder

  • Jan. 9th, 2016 at 1:51 PM

Consciousness shift, I feel different inside my brain from my teenage years. Is this maturity? I'm in the bath tub. Also I have to pee. Do I get out and pee, or just pee in the tub. Water is weird too solid but not it sticks to every thing.

Can't do it

  • Nov. 13th, 2015 at 12:34 PM

.. Every time .. Bury it deep don't think .. Always best

Sacramento aftershock 2015

  • Oct. 26th, 2015 at 5:19 PM

Fun time.. I still didn't get to see slipknot .. Meh worse things have happened

Oct. 23rd, 2015

  • 9:55 AM

A woman came in the other day, looking for glue. Glue capable of towing a car.. I don't think wood glue will tow a car. A man came in, trying to by CDs ... I work at a home improvment store...

June 2024

  • Oct. 20th, 2015 at 8:02 PM

Wait for it