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Handstands hurt my wrists

  • Jul. 20th, 2018 at 12:15 AM

Its all in the wrist.




Not suicide but death

  • Jul. 19th, 2018 at 11:43 PM

Its like.
Not suicide

But planned death?
Is that what this is?

Not to control when you die but to know how you died.

At the end/???/because i allowed it


Fucking underpants



Its fucking retarded..
Im retarded
Also i will die before the end of this movie.


Dante you bastard

  • Jul. 19th, 2018 at 11:34 PM

Fuckin fuck.


I am onto something huge. And i will be the first to die.

Its like actors. In a play. Us in time. Reality. Its a play, it has a begining and an end. Regardless what the actor is doing. He is an actor. He is acting. Playing a game. Thats not him it was Bruce Willis the whole time. Like the man behind the mask. HOLY FUCK IM JIM CAREY.


My mouth kinda feels weird.

  • Jul. 19th, 2018 at 6:48 AM

Like it doeant hurt but there is a noticable discomfort where they ripped my teeth out. Fuck man i need my dex. The pain reliving aspects are like none other. I dont want vicoden or norco shits lame af, just gimme my dex already.

Waiting on a shipment. 2018 and 2 day shipping = 7 days. Like why did i pay extra.
Fuck you amazon.
And while we're at it.
Fuck you Amy Shcumer. Shucmer. Shoemer. ... Fat ass bitch. YOURE NOT FUNNY!!! Id rather watch an elderly man eat horse shit... Maybe not. .. Thats a kinda horrifying image now. And im oddly erect.

Fuck you. Im gunna go play diablo and think about sex drugs and rock&roll.

What the fuck.

  • Jul. 19th, 2018 at 12:45 AM

Ate lunch today. Only a little taste.

The things i feel. The attachment i feel to emails. Its words. In a way it makes me think about "olden times" when people were like writing love letters. Got to see eachother once a year and shit.

I feel so much. I want so much. I am addicted. I am in feelings. So much feels. So much want. So much passion. Your look alone, your eyea, nostrils. My back hurts and i have no dex.

After lunch i hit walmart got some shit went back home and passed the fuck out.

Sexual exhaustion.
What ever it was i was fuckin sleepy.

My balls still kinda hurt.
Maybe cockrings are a bad idea?
Maybe not.

I.. Dont even know anything anymore.

What am i doing?
All i really know.

Is i have feels. And all of this.
Feels right.
Feels good.

I didnt have any booze today.
No dex.
No weed.
Nothing to blame impulse on but my own desire. I wanted it. I still want it. I more then want it. I need it. I need it all.

I need all of you.

In one had, you never truely have anything. But i want to have you, as my own. I want to leave marks. I want to be marked.

Why do i feel the need to scar myself?
What is anything.
What the fuck.
If i could do it all over again.

Id do it the exact same way.
Id do it in the streets.

Jul. 18th, 2018

  • 1:04 AM

Just had 2 wisdom teeth removed.

0 dollars. Not a cent. Ty lowes.

First thing i did. Drink some booze, smoke a cigar, ate some doritos, ate a hard cookie, ate some ice cream.


Things i didnt know about babies;

  • Jul. 18th, 2018 at 1:01 AM

1) They throw up a lot.
2) They throw up a whole lot.
3) Holy shit did it throw up again?
4) Calling your baby "it" seems to piss people off.
5) This thing likes to throw up a lot.
6) I have the most beautiful most precious vomiting baby in the world.
7) Whole diaper thing. Not that bad. At least shes not eating tacobell.
8) It sleeps when it wanta.
9) It follows no mans rule.
10) brb my baby is on the roof again.



  • Jul. 17th, 2018 at 4:12 AM

My phone is at 3%

I am playing a youtube video and posting.

And guess what

I just turned up the brightness to 100%.

Fuck yea



Dangerous is my middle name

  • Jul. 17th, 2018 at 4:09 AM

Gotta always wonder. Is the juice really worth the squeeze?